Learning

I'm learning a lot lately. I'm trying to learn how to balance my personal life with my home life. Sometimes I feel bad about going out with my friends instead of being home while he is. I don't understand that sometimes when, by the time he gets up and goes to work, I will have only had 2 hours with him. I've also been trying to learn/understand why when I mention wanting to go out with some girls to go have a drink, Aaron gets upset. I think he thinks i'm going to want to go out ALL the time. I just think he doesn't want me to be like that. I'm just so frustrated because I don''t see how b/c it didn't work well for him [going out] that I'm automatically not allowed to. urgh. Am i wrong in being kind of upset about this? I feel like i'm being told I can't have a life because he doesn't right now. I hope that I get this figured out sooner or later.
I'm also learning to be patient and know that I need to go get a job. I need to get credits done. I also need to be patient about graduating. I know it's soo close. I don't want to drop the ball now. I just want to make my family proud about me finishing my education. Aaron told me he got scheduled for the night of my graduation. I really hope that he will be able to come. I would be actually kind of sad. Well i should really go. I'm watching a movie and i think my typing is getting annoying. lol.

Love.

Dreams

Now that I'm nearing the end of my education I'm starting to begin the process of finding employment. I really worry that I won't find the job of my dreams. I know you have to work your way up to what you want to achieve, but really? I hope that my significant other will support me in my dreams. I'm looking into London. Wouldn't that be sweet?! i doubt it will happen, but how do I know if I don't try right?
School is going really well. I'm done November 12. SWEET!!! I cannot wait. I really am excited to finally be done and just work. I know its been really hard on Aaron moving and adjusting to lincoln. He's done it well. I 'm just worried because I want him to be happy. At the same time I want to be happy. I guess, I just really need to find a good balance.
Wedding planning is underway. Once this school stuff is over I can go into full wedding mode. I really can't wait. I just want to be married!!!! Hehe. Anyway. I know it will go according to plan but i worry about things. I need to figure out counciling and that hasn't exactly started like it should have a while ago. So I really don't know whats going on with that. I hope I can get time to call Matt to figure it all out. I should probably get back to work.

I hope this finds everyone well.

love.